I'm doing a big ol' ritual here tomorrow relating to some issues in my past. It's lucky that THIS spread came up, because it's perfect.
1. Actual Situation-Six of Cups
The Six of Cups in this deck represents painful memories from my past, specifically my childhood. These are all bad experiences that need to be resolved.
Heh, how fitting with the childhood abuse...
2. Past-Six of Swords
This card represents a journey and not an easy one. The situation of my birth do correlate with a stressful journey, particularly a spiritual one. This card also represents guilt, which is something to the abuse. The book actually says "There may be a sense of guilt from abandonment or a sense of failure from the damage sustained."For the longest time I DID feel damaged.
3. Future-Ten of Cups
This is the card of happiness in the home environment. My ritual for tomorrow is about creating a safe haven in my bedroom. I like this card, because it's showing my efforts won't be in vain, and will make me happy, at least in this one space, so I can work on dealing with the abuse.
Friday, November 26, 2010
I'm doing a big ol' ritual here tomorrow relating to some issues in my past. It's lucky that THIS spread came up, because it's perfect.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
This variation is a card of the day, with a foundation card pulled from the bottom of the deck.
1. Ace of Pentacles-The Glory f Ra
This card talks of winning and success. I feel like I did accomplish something and am successful in something very important (I don't want to go into details, but it did have to deal with an abusive situation). Even if it's been hell on everyone that knows, in the end, it was really a good thing.
2. King of Wands-Lord of Fertility
This card represents help received. Again, this relates a lot to the other situation. Here, it's saying that my foundation for not being MORE of a mess with this is the help from my sister with this.
This reading feels really optimistic for a really terrible situation. I'm happy with this, and it feels like, well, things will turn out alright.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Bright Spark is a card of inspiration and ideas.
In the darkness, there is always one spark of light and it lets you conquest fears or figure things out. My darkness is finally ending and I'm seeing a light at the end of this tunnel. Saturday beings a new day of my life, and this Bright Spark is just growing and growing and helping illuminate things around me. Things I never really knew or understood before.
Seeing this card made me feel strong and ready to take things on.
I feel like an adult again.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Last reading for this book. Tomorrow started the book "The Complete Book of Tarot Spreads", where I'll be using decks besides this one.
This reading is all about your elements.
This card represents my ally. What's interesting here is that my ally is a solar deity, and the card represents the sun. My patron god, Quetzalcoatl, also is represented by the sun. I've missed Him recently, so I think this is showing that he is still my ally.
Card two represents structure and what I physically need. In the Earth position, I have a card that represents the Earth Altar. The Sphinx comes up a lot for me, being the card of unlocking mysteries. Physically, I have to keep unlocking mysteries. I think getting back on track with daily readings will help.
This card represents transformation. Wadjet represents total purification and spiritual awakening. I think this is saying I need to go on a major cleanse, inside and out. Oh...that'll be fun...
This position represents how to find knowledge. Ma'at is the Goddess of Truth. By finding what holds true to me, I will find knowledge.
The final card represents my spirit's goal. The card here, Nephthys, is the card of the High Priestess. This seems pretty obvious to me and just confirms a lot of what I want in my life.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
This spread is intended to help you get back on your life's path. Seeing as I had a major crisis of faith recently and am just getting back to the swing of things in my life, this spread is really fitting.
The first card indicates the overarching theme of my purpose. In this position, Set as the trickster is about bringing the hidden to light and acknowledging it. My purpose is to learn and know everything, I think, as learning brings the hidden to light.
Card two represents my foundation. The card here, the Dove, is the card of innocence. You know how little kids always ask questions? Yeah, I never outgrew that, I just learned when to keep my mouth shut. My foundation is that I have that innocence, that craving for knowledge.
The third card is what I am becoming. Card three is Khepera, the spiral dancer. Khepera teaches us to be more aware of the energies around us, and how to use them for the good. This is saying that I'm going to become someone who can read these subtle energies and harness them. Like, oh I don't know, a Shaman perhaps?
The final card is the card that represents my Sacred self. The Ibis represents the air element. The air element is connected to intellect and communication. I think this primal, sacred self is the self that is willing and able to, well, spread knowledge.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
This spread is interesting to me because you don't read the cards separately, you read the rows.
I inquired to how to keep up my goals for Pagan Pride and start to get my faith bath
Row One-The Star
The Srow signifies what I know and how to integrate it into my life.
The Sphinx card comes up a lot for me, and I think it's helped me realize that I am drawn to being a teacher of this sort of thing. It is the card of the Earth, as is the pyramid card at the start of the row. The Anubis card signifies Shamans. Along with the Sekhmet card, meaning transformation, the two middle cards are very blunt and obvious to me.
This row is reaffirming my beliefs in teaching and Shamanism as key roles to my spiritual life.
Row Two-The Moon
The Moon row reflects where I am now.
The first card here is Osiris, signifying regeneration. This does fit because I'm just getting back to how I was, which I missed. In this row as well is Set, the shadow self. I was very in-tune with the shadow self during my crisis of faith. I felt utterly alone. The final card in the row, Geb and Nut, signify wholeness. As I've begun to do religious work again, I've been feeling whole. Today I did a post about Ostara, and felt great. Khunum is a master craftsman. This card is usually used to mean new beginnings, especially shamanic or religious ones.
This row is staying I'm going in the right direction, and if I keep at it, my faith can only grow.
Row Three-The Sun
The Sun row is showing the future as I continue to grow.
I want to read these ones in order. The first card, Ma'at, symbolizes truth and balance. It also symbolizes radiance. As I continue to grow, I can only get more balanced and radiant in learning, and that sort of joy tends to be infectious. Bast, on the other hand, symbolizes desire. Though this card can have a very explicit sexual meaning, I find it more to be a card of Holy desire. It's the desire to be filled with faith. Khonsu is a Lunar card. The card is said to represent "divine timing", which I do think means I will somehow just be "a natural" at this. The final card, the Dove, is called the "initiate" card. I think this means that once I start to learn and grow, I'll begin to take on initiates and be a teacher. I'm already beginning to plan that out with my career.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
As you may or may not be aware of, I had a huge spiritual crisis that I’m just beginning to overcome. It’s serendipitous that the next spread on my to-do list was one that could help with the question on how I need to keep recovering.
My question is: How do I get back on track with my spirituality.
1. Outer expression of Love-The Desert
This is the card of rebirth and it’s represented as a painful process. This is very true, it has been a very painful process to me. I’ve been pushed down to the lowest of the low and I’m just climbing out of it. This makes sense with my spiritual crisis.
2. Hidden expression of Love-The Nile
Aha, water…my own element where I feel most at ease. This card is all about returning to the primal waters of the unknown and developing trust. By opening myself up to this element and to being to trust myself, I think that this crisis can come to a less violent resolution.
3. Outer Expression of the Challenge-Khepera
This card is about handling energies. I think it means I can’t take on too many things at once. I have to drop something. I’ve already done this. I was going to complete the NaNoWriMo, but it’s proved too much with everything else happening.
4. Hidden Expression of the Challenge-Sothis
This is warning me about despairing again. I have to rise to the challenge and tackle it. I think this is saying there may be more challenges ahead, but I must remain calm and faithful.
5. Visible actions I must take-Nekhbet-Mother-Mut
I must embark on a journey to reclaim the true self. That’s what the book says. Pretty straightforward.
6. Hidden actions I must take-Amun-Ra
I must radiate in the world around me. I need to dive in and embody solar energies. I need to stand up for myself, even if I stand alone and preach to no one. I must stay true to the true self and follow my own path.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Card one refers to where I’m coming from. Set represents the shadows. This card refers to dispelling negativity. In this regard, Set serves as a scapegoat, taking the blame for past mistakes and darkness and helping overcome them.
2. The Crested Ibis-Air
Position two represents what it will take to be at peace with the transformation. The Air card obviously represents the element of Air. This card is also symbolic of communication. I think this means to be at peace, I need to be able to express my ideas. I’ve already started to do this.
3. The Sphinx-Divine Messenger
Card three represents the motivation. The Sphinx card comes up a lot. It’s about knowing everything, and accessing ancient knowledge.
Card four is about my highest potential future. This card is about learning from the elders, activating your sacred path. To me, it seems to be a shamanistic awakening.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
This is your cosmic guide. It’s no coincidence I pulled Thoth. Thoth has been one of “my” deities since I learned about Him years ago. He’s been very close to me during hard times, and I enjoy the relationship I have with Him. This signifies that my protector is already a deity I’m close to, and that my “quest” is really all about knowledge.
2. Sothis-Star Consciousness
The position represents your karmic protector, someone who guides you from past life to new life. This card tells me that I am becoming a rising star. From what little I know of my most recent past life, there is no where I can go but up, which I think is what Sothic represents here.
This card is the protector of my physical body. Nekhbet-Mother-Mut represents that my spirit guides are looking out for me, providing me with wisdom, and are teaching me, handing down knowledge from Elder to Neophyte.
4. The Dove-Initiate
Card 4 is my soul’s ally. Like with card three, this card is about innocence. When this card is pulled, it related entirely to me, meaning I am the innocent one, I am the initiate, and I must be willing to trust and learn to grow.
5. The Crested Ibis-Air
Another spirit ally. Again with the birds. This card is the sacred element of Air, my second favourite element. It’s also telling me I need to lighten up and not be so serious all the time.
6. Nephthys-The High Priestess
This is my relationship guide. Nephthys tells me to me to watch for symbols, coincidences, and pay attention to my inner knowledge. I think working with my Third Eye would be very important here.
7. Sobek and Horus-Reconciliation of Opposites
This card is a guide to help me discover my sacred purpose. This card indicates conflict, be it inner or outer, will soon be resolved and my new self can evolve from my old self.
This is the proverbial “ah-ha” moment. Pulling Ma’at here is very auspicious because it means I have to pay special attention to this card. Ma’at symbolises balance and finding balance in everything I do.
9. Amun-Ra-Solar Energies
This is the card of inner truth. I am going to state this now though: I’m more of a lunar person than a solar one. This card speaks of embodying solar energies and deities. One of my patron, non-Egyptian Gods is a solar deity. He’s also the deity I’ve worked with the longest. Amun-Ra symbolizes a sacred marriage as well. I’m not 100% sure what that means.
10. Khnum-Master Craftsman
This is the destiny card. Khnum is a ram’s head deity that created life on His potter’s wheel. Khnum helps Shamans become, well, Shamans. He “activates” the spirit, and causes an altered state of mind.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
This card describes where I am in the present. When this card is pulled, it is a sign that the shaman qualities within myself are being opened. In this position, it represents the beginning of a shamanic journey, ready to be transformed.
This position signifies who I’m becoming. Thoth is the God of Wisdom and writing (and was one of the first deities I ever worked with. Nice guy.) The card also signifies enlightened communication, which I think may mean my website.
3. The Desert-The Fire Element
This card represents what I need to let go of in order to grow. This card represents that I’m in the process of being reborn, transforming into something else, something new. The card also tells me to “burn up” the negative people and events from my past.
4. Khonsu-Lunar Energies
The fourth card is the vehicle for transformation. This is what will help usher me into my new way of life. This card represents moving forward, even if you have been hesitant. Take risks, do what you feel works. This card is really sticking out to me. I’ve been dealing with some things in the Mesoamerican Recon community, and how much I disagree with them. I feel undervalued because I don’t do what they do, but I still honour and work with Mesoamerican deities.
It’s pretty much a pissing contest now, to be honest.
This position represents divine knowledge. Sekhmet is, of course, the lion-headed fierce Goddess who will mess up your shit! Sekhmet is a protector, albeit a violent one. She helps with overcoming situations where you feel you need protection. As you accept Her protection, you will gain the divine knowledge.
Uh, holy crap, am I the only one seeing the Mesoamerican connection! I’ve had some issues with the reconstructivists, though not directly. My fear is that if I start claiming myself as a Mesoamerican Pagan, they are going to troll me. It’s really stifled a lot of work on my part.