Mystic Faerie Tarot: Combating Fear

1. What you need to know most about what you fear: Queen of Swords
This card symbolizes being true to your emotions. Though you may feel like shutting down emotions when you’re nervous and ignoring the pit in your stomach, it’s more beneficial to listen to your feelings, but think with your head, other than listening with your head, and thinking with your heart.

2. What aspect of your fear is real: Six of Cups
There is something missing from my life, that I used to have in this past. I think this card represents the fact that I’m not really practising my religion at home on a day-to-day basis, I’m a little obsessed with getting everything first. So, I’m living in the past, when my room was pretty much spiritually safe. Now wandering spirits can come in.

3. How you can combat it: Judgement
This card represents that there is something you can be doing. In my case, I think it’s that I’m not doing anything with religion anymore, and my room is that of an average college dorm, rather than a relaxing place for me to escape and keep sacred.

4. What aspect of your fear is an illusion: Six of Pentacles
This card represents that it’s okay to accept help. I think I’m almost afraid to call on spirits for help because I don’t want to seem like a bother. So, that adds another level of fear: one of being an annoyance. This card is showing me that I don’t need to be afraid of that anymore.

5. How you can banish the illusion: Three of Swords
This card traditionally symbolizes getting in touch with your sadness and mourn a loss properly. I think in my case, it’s telling me to get in touch with my emotions in general. Maybe using them as a catalyst to form a tighter relationship with my patron deities, instead of just calling on them when I’m scared.

6. What you fear most: The Priestess
This card is telling me to immerse myself in my religion. I think I’ve always been a little wary of practising what the books say. I love my religion dearly, but when it comes to thinks like rituals, especially with more than one person around, I feel silly. I mean...”smart” people don’t have religions, they think more logically. I fear both losing my religion, and making a fool of myself by saying I’m a Pagan. I think this is a very deep fear I have, more deep than what the rest of this reading has been about: my fear of the dark.

7. How you can overcome it: Wheel of Fortune
This card represents learning to understand the cycle of life. We will all have days of fear, and days of being perfectly alright. As soon as I understand this concept, I’ll be able to feel more at ease in the dark.

8. What you will learn by overcoming this fear: Temperance
When I conquer my fear of the dark, I’ll be able to have a blissful, stress-free falling asleep time. It can take me a while to fall asleep, no matter how tired I am, so having that time be relaxing would be really awesome.

Mystic Faerie: Four cards

Indicator-Ten of Cups (reversed)
This card indicates a lack of harmony and co-operation. This could symbolize a loss of friendship, major family disputes and anti-social action. Sometimes this card can also represent young pregnancies.

1. Ace of Pentacles (Reversed)
This card symbolises greed. It’s the card of rampant materialism. The card also represents lack of imagination and fear of death.

2. The Magician (reversed)
The playing cards on this card represent chaos to me. It shows a lack of organization and a lack of focus.

3. Judgement
This card urges you to open your heart and listen for divine messages. It will tell you what you need to do.

Overall
Maybe I’m still a little overtired, but these cards did not speak to me very much today. I can see each of these aspects within me (the anti-socialness, the greed, the chaos, and the need to just listen), but I can’t piece them together today.

Mystic Faerie: Art

1. Three of Pentacles
This card represents doing things you love that make you happy. I have been kind of sitting around not doing anything recently, but I really want to try to do some space art because I love space. I think today this means I need to do things I love, and practise painting space art.

2. Ace of Swords
This is a card of challenge. Again, this relates to space art. I’m not a “good” drawer, I don’t have the right eye for it, as it were. I’m good at photo manipulation, but that took about two years of practise. Now, I’m going to start digital painting of space, and it’s a big challenge. So, I have to learn to cope with the challenge and not get frustrated if I’m not as good as one of the “pros” right away.

3. Five of Wands
This card represents compromise. I think it means that I have to not tell myself I’m just terrible at art, and admit that I’m just learning. Space is a bit subject, and I have to keep looking at legit photos from NASA and art from the pros and learn their styles. If I’m really confused, I just have to work through it.

Overall
So, like I said, I’ve been scouring the internet for things about space art, which is a combination (usually) of photo manipulation and digital paining. So, I’m going to take today to learn how to do space art. I have to go slowly and not make myself crazy about it, which I tend to do if things aren’t perfect. The reading today tells me not to be hard on myself, and I’m going to do m best not to. I am just learning, and, trust me, if I can learn to make makeup even, I can learn to paint nebulas.

Mystic Faerie: Confusing.

1. The Hermit (Reversed)
This card when it’s reversed means that what you are doing alone isn’t working. The card symbolizes excessive isolation. The card shows that I need to lighten up and not be so anti-social, but still remain cautious as this is the time for people to prey on vulnerabilities.

2. The Sun
This card symbolizes happiness and joy. It symbolizes that everything will work out.

3. Two of Swords
This card represents a choice. I have to decide if certain relationships are worth keeping. The card tells us that we have to be honest, and if the other people can accept this, the relationship can and probably will work out, all others will make your life better.

Overall:
Today I’m feeling a bit scattered, which is reflected in the reading. I really don’t know how to connect these all. I’m rather worried about a few things, so we’ll just have to see what happens.
Hopefully tomorrow I feel better.

Mystic Faerie: Shake Things Up

1. The Priest (Reversed)
This is a learning card. When this card comes up, especially reversed, it means the unorthodox approach to things, mostly religion. I haven’t really been working too hard on my USBoS, and have been working on the same document for almost three days now.

2. King of Pentacles (Reversed)
This card represents a well-known “worn” path, and someone who is materialistic. Thought the King likes to share his wealth, when reversed he doesn’t exactly do it well.

3. Five of Swords (Reversed)
This card shows that there is a problem, but I haven’t been asking the right questions to get an answer. If I keep asking, however the problem will be solved

Overall
So, I admit, I haven’t been very productive this week. I’ve been sitting around, feeling kind of depressed for most of the day. Thought today I managed to sleep in, I still feel exhausted. I think overall, if I want to get anything done, I need to shake it up. I’m considering going out this afternoon, so the cold and the exercise would wake me up. This might help me in the long run.